Well, I have come to the point in my communication where I am trying to get some answers about the student loan industry and what is currently being done to address the ridiculous debt students carry in this country.
I started with my state senator, Senator Charles Schumer, then the Federal Direct Loan Service Center and now I am looking at contacting the Department of Education. I have yet to hear back from Senator Schumer or his office but I will give them a chance to respond.
The Direct Loan Servicing center is forwarding me some requested information about my loans so I can see just how it all breaks down.
The Department of Education looks to have some worthwhile pages so if anyone is on the same path or interested here you might want to check out the link.
As for drawing more readership to this site I am open to suggestions. Come one, come all I need some insight to get this site rollin.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Penalize or Incentivize?
I thought it might be useful to look at how student loan borrowers are treated to gain some insight into why we languish and suffer so much. It has dawned on me that the system might be setup to make it so.
Commonly, student loan borrowers are punished when they experience trouble paying back their loans or default altogether. While punishing those that don't pay their debts is an acceptable concept within our society, it has its limitations and weaknesses and therefore may not be in everyone's best interests.
Merriam -Webster defines punishment as a penalty inflicted on an offender. In the United States the principle of using penalties is most commonly used within the criminal justice system. Our system of imprisonment is often called rehabilitation but for those imprisoned I would say it is a actually a form of punishment. Furthermore, the criminal justice system in the United States is far from perfect. The law often acts blindly and without compassion. As a result, mistakes are often made and we have a system that currently incarcerates millions.
So it might be fair to say that punishment is not always the best answer to a problem, especially if rehabilitation is the goal. Other methods of correction, such as positive reinforcement, often work more effectively when trying to show someone the right way to do something or to keep them on the right track.
Positive reinforcement involves providing some kind of positive stimulus to a subject so that they begin to attach strong, positive feelings with the desired outcome or behavior. This kind of system is used in business, in the form of bonuses. Bonuses are promised in expectation of profitable work. A bonus is therefore a type of incentive.
Merriam-Webster defines an incentive as something that incites or has a tendency to incite to determination or action.
Where student loans are concerned, or any loan for that matter, it would be ideal to incite student loan borrowers to courses of action such that they pay off their loans successfully and preferably in the short term. So if incentives work well then why does our financial system prefer to treat student loan borrowers like criminals and not like people who we want to do successful business with? That certainly is a question that I have yet to see answered by anyone in power, politically or financially, but its time it was asked.
Instead of creating a situation in which borrowers are strongly encouraged to make successful repayment, the current system makes threats and inflicts severe punishments in the case of nonpayment or default. The current system does little to incite heightened or lifted spirits for those struggling to repay. Instead it penalizes them with interest, penalty fees, and crushed credit scores if they experience trouble repaying in the expected amounts.
While it would be naive to think that a system that relied on positive reinforcement would be without problems and not have any defaults its not too outlandish to expect defaults to drop dramatically. Let me illustrate with an example.
If a student loan borrower, who we have every expectation of becoming successful and eventually a generous taxpayer, was given a ten year moratorium on any interest on their loans what might be the outcome?
For many people, that ten years would be an incentivized opportunity to get completely out of debt. Many would work harder, perhaps even more than one job for the hope of being free of the burden in the short term.
To further incentivize repayment we could add in some negative reinforcement, by adding in an undesirable stimulus such as interest after the first ten years, perhaps on a graduated scale for each year after the ten years was over.
My point with all of this is that obviously the penalty system is working for finance companies. It is however not so successful for borrowers or the government. So its time for new ideas. Its time to elevate the hopes of all students everywhere - that they can get an education and they can pay for it.
This is only one part of the bigger picture however. We must also begin to address the why of the current system and how we change that. As I have already alluded to, who benefits from the current system of loan punishment and why would they fight like hell to keep the status quo? That, my friends, will be the subject of future posts.
Commonly, student loan borrowers are punished when they experience trouble paying back their loans or default altogether. While punishing those that don't pay their debts is an acceptable concept within our society, it has its limitations and weaknesses and therefore may not be in everyone's best interests.
Merriam -Webster defines punishment as a penalty inflicted on an offender. In the United States the principle of using penalties is most commonly used within the criminal justice system. Our system of imprisonment is often called rehabilitation but for those imprisoned I would say it is a actually a form of punishment. Furthermore, the criminal justice system in the United States is far from perfect. The law often acts blindly and without compassion. As a result, mistakes are often made and we have a system that currently incarcerates millions.
So it might be fair to say that punishment is not always the best answer to a problem, especially if rehabilitation is the goal. Other methods of correction, such as positive reinforcement, often work more effectively when trying to show someone the right way to do something or to keep them on the right track.
Positive reinforcement involves providing some kind of positive stimulus to a subject so that they begin to attach strong, positive feelings with the desired outcome or behavior. This kind of system is used in business, in the form of bonuses. Bonuses are promised in expectation of profitable work. A bonus is therefore a type of incentive.
Merriam-Webster defines an incentive as something that incites or has a tendency to incite to determination or action.
Where student loans are concerned, or any loan for that matter, it would be ideal to incite student loan borrowers to courses of action such that they pay off their loans successfully and preferably in the short term. So if incentives work well then why does our financial system prefer to treat student loan borrowers like criminals and not like people who we want to do successful business with? That certainly is a question that I have yet to see answered by anyone in power, politically or financially, but its time it was asked.
Instead of creating a situation in which borrowers are strongly encouraged to make successful repayment, the current system makes threats and inflicts severe punishments in the case of nonpayment or default. The current system does little to incite heightened or lifted spirits for those struggling to repay. Instead it penalizes them with interest, penalty fees, and crushed credit scores if they experience trouble repaying in the expected amounts.
While it would be naive to think that a system that relied on positive reinforcement would be without problems and not have any defaults its not too outlandish to expect defaults to drop dramatically. Let me illustrate with an example.
If a student loan borrower, who we have every expectation of becoming successful and eventually a generous taxpayer, was given a ten year moratorium on any interest on their loans what might be the outcome?
For many people, that ten years would be an incentivized opportunity to get completely out of debt. Many would work harder, perhaps even more than one job for the hope of being free of the burden in the short term.
To further incentivize repayment we could add in some negative reinforcement, by adding in an undesirable stimulus such as interest after the first ten years, perhaps on a graduated scale for each year after the ten years was over.
My point with all of this is that obviously the penalty system is working for finance companies. It is however not so successful for borrowers or the government. So its time for new ideas. Its time to elevate the hopes of all students everywhere - that they can get an education and they can pay for it.
This is only one part of the bigger picture however. We must also begin to address the why of the current system and how we change that. As I have already alluded to, who benefits from the current system of loan punishment and why would they fight like hell to keep the status quo? That, my friends, will be the subject of future posts.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Get Active: Contact Your Senator
Today I wrote an email to New York's Senator Charles Schumer to ask what he is doing to seek relief for people with excessive student loans. I will be posting his response as soon I receive that.
As I see it, the problem for anyone in this situation is the shame and fear you feel with this debt. You are made to feel completely responsible and alone with this burden and no real help is offered currently in the law or by politicians in general.
While the dream to get an education, a good job and a better life becomes a realization for so many, there are a growing number of us who fall between the cracks and end up ruined by student loans. We tried to do the right thing but we hit hiccups along the way and the dream quickly became a nightmare.
Please, to anyone reading this, help us end the nightmare and see daylight again. Recommend this blog and others for people to read. Maybe together we can create a movement to set things right once again.
Another blog that I found interesting can be found at http://www.icantpaymystudentloans.com.
Please go there and read what has happened to Gavin. His story might be your story or your child's story. It shouldn't have to be anyone's story.
As I see it, the problem for anyone in this situation is the shame and fear you feel with this debt. You are made to feel completely responsible and alone with this burden and no real help is offered currently in the law or by politicians in general.
While the dream to get an education, a good job and a better life becomes a realization for so many, there are a growing number of us who fall between the cracks and end up ruined by student loans. We tried to do the right thing but we hit hiccups along the way and the dream quickly became a nightmare.
Please, to anyone reading this, help us end the nightmare and see daylight again. Recommend this blog and others for people to read. Maybe together we can create a movement to set things right once again.
Another blog that I found interesting can be found at http://www.icantpaymystudentloans.com.
Please go there and read what has happened to Gavin. His story might be your story or your child's story. It shouldn't have to be anyone's story.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Getting Out of A Sticky Delinquency
So even though I have already laid out some of the history of how I got into this mess in three separate posts, (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3), I have yet to explain some of the more ridiculous aspects of dealing with the loans when they came due.
When the student loans came due I also had accumulated a mountain of personal debt in the form of credit cards. To deal with the personal debt I had the option of seeking credit counseling or filing for bankruptcy. At the time, I felt extremely pressed as the end of the availability of chapter 7 bankruptcy was close at hand, or so I thought. As of October 17, 2005 bankruptcy law did change but in retrospect the change in the law wouldn't have affected me because my income was so low.
However, I didn't know that at the time and the bankruptcy lawyer that I consulted with didn't know that either - at least he didn't seem to know or he didn't tell me. Suffice to say - I looked at my personal debt and made the best decision I could with what I knew.
But after the bankruptcy I still had a vehicle payment and my student loans. With my credit in ruins I had to pay for everything directly for awhile. On the small income I had things were very tight.
When my student loans came up for repayment I unfortunately let them go. I ignored them - wishing somewhere in my bankruptcy traumatized mind that they would just go away. By the time I had the strength to face them they had fallen into delinquency. And for you I told you so people out there - yeah I know - it was all my fault. My mistakes. I get that.
Anyway, when I approached the nice people at the Federal Student Loan Service Center to deal with my loans they would only acknowledge that my loans were in delinquency and that the case had been forwarded to their collections agency - PIONEER.
That's when things got ugly. The good folks at Pioneer informed me that they could only get me on a plan out of delinquency if I agreed to make 9 consecutive payments of approximately $900 a month. I explained to them that they were insane because that was 73% of my monthly net income!
I went around and around with them explaining that I couldn't do that - that there must be some other way. I insisted that no one on my income could afford 73% of their income and still live. They didn't care. In fact, they even suggested at one point that I take the single credit card that I did have at the time and make the first payment on that and then maybe borrow the rest from friends or relatives as need be. I explained to them that I was not going to make more bad decisions to quote "do the right thing" by them. I further explained that if they were already asking for 73% of my income there would be no way for me to pay the credit card off under this much financial duress. Again, they didn't care but they did their best to try and make all this seem legitimate.
Aside from the $900 a month, the only other option, they explained, was that I could make maintenance payments that showed some good faith on my part. This payment amount was not going to get my loans out of delinquency, mind you - it was just to show good faith.
I felt that I needed to start somewhere so I agreed and started paying them some $400 a month to keep the account from getting worse. That was 32% of my monthly net income. Over the next nine months I made every payment on time but I kept trying to get them to relent and release the account. All my requests were to no avail.
It wasn't until I came across an obscure reference on the internet to the Office of the Ombudsmen for the Federal Student Loan Service Center that I got some relief. One late night I sent a frustrated and exasperated letter explaining what I had done to deal with these people at Pioneer. Within three days the Pioneer people called me and released the loan from delinquency.
The sad thing about all this is there was no clear listing on the Federal Student Loan Service Center web site about what to do if the Federal Student Loan Service Center's own collection agency wasn't working with you. I had to find it and dig it up on my own just to get the loans out of delinquency. There is no real help to this day on the website for people with loans in delinquency.
Furthermore, there was no apology or explanation of what happened to the money that was sent to Pioneer. I am sure they got a portion of what I paid - there would be no other reason for them to insist that I pay them 73% of my net income otherwise.
So, today I have student loans that I can only make interest payments on. Of the approximately $120,000 in total debt - $107,000 is principal - the rest is penalties and interest. And unless my income takes a significant jump in the near future I can only see paying on these for the rest of my life. And given the current economy and the pickle I am in - I don't see a foreseeable jump in income coming.
When the student loans came due I also had accumulated a mountain of personal debt in the form of credit cards. To deal with the personal debt I had the option of seeking credit counseling or filing for bankruptcy. At the time, I felt extremely pressed as the end of the availability of chapter 7 bankruptcy was close at hand, or so I thought. As of October 17, 2005 bankruptcy law did change but in retrospect the change in the law wouldn't have affected me because my income was so low.
However, I didn't know that at the time and the bankruptcy lawyer that I consulted with didn't know that either - at least he didn't seem to know or he didn't tell me. Suffice to say - I looked at my personal debt and made the best decision I could with what I knew.
But after the bankruptcy I still had a vehicle payment and my student loans. With my credit in ruins I had to pay for everything directly for awhile. On the small income I had things were very tight.
When my student loans came up for repayment I unfortunately let them go. I ignored them - wishing somewhere in my bankruptcy traumatized mind that they would just go away. By the time I had the strength to face them they had fallen into delinquency. And for you I told you so people out there - yeah I know - it was all my fault. My mistakes. I get that.
Anyway, when I approached the nice people at the Federal Student Loan Service Center to deal with my loans they would only acknowledge that my loans were in delinquency and that the case had been forwarded to their collections agency - PIONEER.
That's when things got ugly. The good folks at Pioneer informed me that they could only get me on a plan out of delinquency if I agreed to make 9 consecutive payments of approximately $900 a month. I explained to them that they were insane because that was 73% of my monthly net income!
I went around and around with them explaining that I couldn't do that - that there must be some other way. I insisted that no one on my income could afford 73% of their income and still live. They didn't care. In fact, they even suggested at one point that I take the single credit card that I did have at the time and make the first payment on that and then maybe borrow the rest from friends or relatives as need be. I explained to them that I was not going to make more bad decisions to quote "do the right thing" by them. I further explained that if they were already asking for 73% of my income there would be no way for me to pay the credit card off under this much financial duress. Again, they didn't care but they did their best to try and make all this seem legitimate.
Aside from the $900 a month, the only other option, they explained, was that I could make maintenance payments that showed some good faith on my part. This payment amount was not going to get my loans out of delinquency, mind you - it was just to show good faith.
I felt that I needed to start somewhere so I agreed and started paying them some $400 a month to keep the account from getting worse. That was 32% of my monthly net income. Over the next nine months I made every payment on time but I kept trying to get them to relent and release the account. All my requests were to no avail.
It wasn't until I came across an obscure reference on the internet to the Office of the Ombudsmen for the Federal Student Loan Service Center that I got some relief. One late night I sent a frustrated and exasperated letter explaining what I had done to deal with these people at Pioneer. Within three days the Pioneer people called me and released the loan from delinquency.
The sad thing about all this is there was no clear listing on the Federal Student Loan Service Center web site about what to do if the Federal Student Loan Service Center's own collection agency wasn't working with you. I had to find it and dig it up on my own just to get the loans out of delinquency. There is no real help to this day on the website for people with loans in delinquency.
Furthermore, there was no apology or explanation of what happened to the money that was sent to Pioneer. I am sure they got a portion of what I paid - there would be no other reason for them to insist that I pay them 73% of my net income otherwise.
So, today I have student loans that I can only make interest payments on. Of the approximately $120,000 in total debt - $107,000 is principal - the rest is penalties and interest. And unless my income takes a significant jump in the near future I can only see paying on these for the rest of my life. And given the current economy and the pickle I am in - I don't see a foreseeable jump in income coming.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Student Borrowers are Worthy of Help!
I want to add something to the last post entitled Student Loans and Bankruptcy: The Hard Truth. There is this stigma out there that if you mismanage your finances then you must be unworthy of help. That social stigma just isn’t fair.
Just because someone got themselves over their head in debt doesn’t necessarily make them unworthy of assistance. It certainly makes them bad at finances and quite possibly a bad risk for future financial investment, but not necessarily hopeless.
The oddity with student loans then is that the loans can be discharged under two other circumstances that I did not touch on in the last post. These circumstances include full, permanent disability and death.
Unfortunately, I have come across circumstances wherein borrowers have committed suicide to escape student loan debt. In my mind, these tragedies could have been avoided if the borrowers had been presented with other options to manage their debt.
In losing these people to suicide I can see several negative outcomes of all this. The first is obvious, the families of these poor people had to deal with the tragic nature of their deaths and the knowledge that their deaths were preventable. Second, their deaths created a situation wherein the discharge of the loans was forced. As a result, no moneys will ever be repaid and the lending institution will now lose the entire sum of each loan. Third, these people will never become taxpayers and add to the general welfare of this country. We have in effect lost the entire financial return on the educational investments made in these people. Lastly, the accomplishments of these particular human beings, given the benefit of their educations, will never be known. Who knows what accomplishments awaited each of them.
All of this is the direct result of the Draconian laws now being applied to student loans. To my knowledge all other forms of personal debt can be discharged through some form of bankruptcy. If there are bankruptcy lawyers reading this please correct me if I’m wrong on this point. My point is - where were our regulators in making sure that these people weren’t being unduly burdened by hawkish lending and repayment practices?
Aside from simply forgiving student debt there are other interesting ways to help students and graduates deal with debt. For example, borrowers that have obviously gotten in way over their heads could also be offered interest free repayment on loan amounts that are too high, for example that exceed one’s income. In this way the borrowers can pay off principal and get ahead of it and therefore still retain some hope for their own future. They can also go on to have families and become successful, contributing members of society.
If you haven't read my story so far please go back and read my first posts. I am one of these people who were sucked into the dream of an education, and who, for whatever reason soon found myself drowning in debt. When I speak about other people I am speaking for myself as well. Student loan borrowers deserve help - just like the banking industry, the auto industry, and defaulting homeowners. Unfortunately, our plight goes unheard and unseen because of the shame we are made to feel for wanting an education.
For some other insight and interesting reading please visit Studentloanjustice.org and read the selected stories they have there. This is where I unfortunately came upon stories of people committing suicide to be free of their student loans.
Just because someone got themselves over their head in debt doesn’t necessarily make them unworthy of assistance. It certainly makes them bad at finances and quite possibly a bad risk for future financial investment, but not necessarily hopeless.
The oddity with student loans then is that the loans can be discharged under two other circumstances that I did not touch on in the last post. These circumstances include full, permanent disability and death.
Unfortunately, I have come across circumstances wherein borrowers have committed suicide to escape student loan debt. In my mind, these tragedies could have been avoided if the borrowers had been presented with other options to manage their debt.
In losing these people to suicide I can see several negative outcomes of all this. The first is obvious, the families of these poor people had to deal with the tragic nature of their deaths and the knowledge that their deaths were preventable. Second, their deaths created a situation wherein the discharge of the loans was forced. As a result, no moneys will ever be repaid and the lending institution will now lose the entire sum of each loan. Third, these people will never become taxpayers and add to the general welfare of this country. We have in effect lost the entire financial return on the educational investments made in these people. Lastly, the accomplishments of these particular human beings, given the benefit of their educations, will never be known. Who knows what accomplishments awaited each of them.
All of this is the direct result of the Draconian laws now being applied to student loans. To my knowledge all other forms of personal debt can be discharged through some form of bankruptcy. If there are bankruptcy lawyers reading this please correct me if I’m wrong on this point. My point is - where were our regulators in making sure that these people weren’t being unduly burdened by hawkish lending and repayment practices?
Aside from simply forgiving student debt there are other interesting ways to help students and graduates deal with debt. For example, borrowers that have obviously gotten in way over their heads could also be offered interest free repayment on loan amounts that are too high, for example that exceed one’s income. In this way the borrowers can pay off principal and get ahead of it and therefore still retain some hope for their own future. They can also go on to have families and become successful, contributing members of society.
If you haven't read my story so far please go back and read my first posts. I am one of these people who were sucked into the dream of an education, and who, for whatever reason soon found myself drowning in debt. When I speak about other people I am speaking for myself as well. Student loan borrowers deserve help - just like the banking industry, the auto industry, and defaulting homeowners. Unfortunately, our plight goes unheard and unseen because of the shame we are made to feel for wanting an education.
For some other insight and interesting reading please visit Studentloanjustice.org and read the selected stories they have there. This is where I unfortunately came upon stories of people committing suicide to be free of their student loans.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Bankruptcy and Student Loans: The Hard Truth
I recently sought legal advice about student loans and bankruptcy in an informal setting. I use the term informal because while I did not retain the services of a lawyer for the purpose of filing bankruptcy I did consult with a lawyer on the topic and compensated this lawyer for his nonbinding opinion.
So here is the skinny on that communication.
While it is generally true that one cannot claim one’s student loans under a bankruptcy filing it is possible to do so in special circumstances. This special circumstance is known as undue hardship.
According to this lawyer, for a person to succeed on a claim of undue hardship they must satisfy the test for undue hardship as laid out in the case of Brunner v. NY State Dept. of Education. In this case, the district court adopted a standard for "undue hardship" that required a three-part test. First, the debtor must show that he or she cannot maintain, based on current income and expenses, a "minimal" standard of living for themselves and their dependents if forced to repay the loans. Second, the debtor must show that additional circumstances exist which indicate that the current hardship is likely to persist for a significant portion of the repayment period of the student loans. Third, the debtor must show that they have made good faith efforts to repay the loans. The first part of this test has been applied frequently as the minimum necessary to establish "undue hardship."
Other cases that the lawyer cited as support for the use of this test include Bryant v. Pennsylvania Higher Educ. Assistance Agency (In re Bryant), 72 B.R. 913, 915 (Bankr.E.D.Pa.1987); North Dakota State Bd. of Higher Educ. v. Frech (In re Frech), 62 B.R. 235 (Bankr.D.Minn.1986); Marion v. Pennsylvania Higher Educ. Assistance Agency (In re Marion), 61 B.R. 815 (Bankr.W.D.Pa.1986).
Now, if there are some lawyers out there specializing in bankruptcy and you have experience with these loans please comment here and let us know what you have seen. We would all appreciate it.
In addition, if you are a borrower that sought to have your loans dismissed with the undue hardship test please let us know about your experience. Any and all other related comments are also welcome.
My next blog entry will be on Monday, September 21st, 2009. However, I will be still checking in on the blog over the weekend for your comments so please feel free to jump in.
May you all have a great weekend!
So here is the skinny on that communication.
While it is generally true that one cannot claim one’s student loans under a bankruptcy filing it is possible to do so in special circumstances. This special circumstance is known as undue hardship.
According to this lawyer, for a person to succeed on a claim of undue hardship they must satisfy the test for undue hardship as laid out in the case of Brunner v. NY State Dept. of Education. In this case, the district court adopted a standard for "undue hardship" that required a three-part test. First, the debtor must show that he or she cannot maintain, based on current income and expenses, a "minimal" standard of living for themselves and their dependents if forced to repay the loans. Second, the debtor must show that additional circumstances exist which indicate that the current hardship is likely to persist for a significant portion of the repayment period of the student loans. Third, the debtor must show that they have made good faith efforts to repay the loans. The first part of this test has been applied frequently as the minimum necessary to establish "undue hardship."
Other cases that the lawyer cited as support for the use of this test include Bryant v. Pennsylvania Higher Educ. Assistance Agency (In re Bryant), 72 B.R. 913, 915 (Bankr.E.D.Pa.1987); North Dakota State Bd. of Higher Educ. v. Frech (In re Frech), 62 B.R. 235 (Bankr.D.Minn.1986); Marion v. Pennsylvania Higher Educ. Assistance Agency (In re Marion), 61 B.R. 815 (Bankr.W.D.Pa.1986).
Now, if there are some lawyers out there specializing in bankruptcy and you have experience with these loans please comment here and let us know what you have seen. We would all appreciate it.
In addition, if you are a borrower that sought to have your loans dismissed with the undue hardship test please let us know about your experience. Any and all other related comments are also welcome.
My next blog entry will be on Monday, September 21st, 2009. However, I will be still checking in on the blog over the weekend for your comments so please feel free to jump in.
May you all have a great weekend!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
A Pledge To Education Borrowers
I want to make a pledge to everyone who participates in this blog who has suffered with the burden of excessive student loan debt. I will do what I can through to help to change the way people think about educational loans and do what I can to see that we better protect borrowers when accepting loans and to enable them to seek greater relief when under duress from excess debt.
So please make comments here, email me, let me know what you are thinking, whether you agree or not with what I have to say. In this way, we can all work together to find and push for changes in educational loans that benefit everyone. Hopefully, we can find ways to protect everyone from what has become just another predatory situation in our country.
So please make comments here, email me, let me know what you are thinking, whether you agree or not with what I have to say. In this way, we can all work together to find and push for changes in educational loans that benefit everyone. Hopefully, we can find ways to protect everyone from what has become just another predatory situation in our country.
Going Beyond One's Own Needs
Something is nagging at me based on some reading I did at a website dedicated to getting student loan debts forgiven. At Forgivestudentloandebt.com, one commenter wrote that he would do everything in his power to prevent the government from forgiving student loan debt. In all fairness, this person makes some valid and reasonable points before taking this hard nosed position.
BUT - this is where another part of my mind says, hold on - there are consequences to our choices right? Does this equally apply to everyone? Maybe I should look closer at this idea.
Let me start this new line of questioning by saying that the commenter apparently has made good decisions that have paid off for him. I am truly happy for him and his family. His dreams have been realized to some extent. That's wonderful! He isn't asking for a handout so why should he and his children have to help anyone else out? Right? That's a valid question.
While I agree with what this writer has to say I must take issue with the sentimentality and its shortsightedness. I have seen enough in my life to know that no one in life truly makes it anywhere or achieves anything without the assistance of others. At some point we all need some help. In fact, this simple understanding is so deep-seated in our society and we take it so serious that, as a country, we spend a large percentage of our current tax revenues in the United States on this ideal. So just what kind of help am I talking about and why would we do it? I will explain.
The kind of help I am referring to is the kind of help we lend to people blessed with children in our society. They are given elevated status above childless singles and couples. This status comes up every year they receive a tax break for each child that they have. And as a result, every person and couple without children pays a higher level of taxes to the IRS each and every year compared to their child-blessed counterparts. Why should this be so? Why is it fair to give preferential tax treatment to parents over childless singles and couples?
In addition, all homeowners must pay school taxes to their local school districts even if they don't have children, can't have children, or want to have children but can't have children because of other financial obligations (i.e., student loans).
So this begs the questions: why should childless singles and couples be asked to pay for the choices others have made to have children? Is this right? Is it fair to the childless?
My answer to all of this is that we all, at times must go beyond our present need and serve a larger, common good. Education serves that greater good in this example. Furthermore, perpetuation of our culture and our way of life through our children is also considered to be for the common good and is thus fundamentally important. But this commitment takes resources, significant time and money to achieve. We, all of us, support this commitment with tax incentives and spreading the burden around a larger tax base - to everyone, including those without children and those who own homes.
In short, most or all of us benefit from these share-the-burden type practices that have the greater good at heart. Sometimes we are the payers and sometimes we are the receivers. Sometimes we are both. But I hope I have shown, in an albeit crude and limited fashion, that it is longstanding practice to do what is right in this country and to help those in need, even when it may not sit right with some of us and it doesn't precisely meet our so called purist capitalistic ideals.
So to those who resist addressing the growing enslavement of some of America's good and decent minds through excessive student loan practices I say this: before you commit to doing everything in your power to oppose something that might ultimately benefit everyone - take a good look at your life and be thankful for what have you received because of the good graces of others. Maybe that tax break for your children or that public school education that you feel you are entitled too isn't such a sweet deal for someone else. And maybe that someone else, is someone struggling with $120,000 in student loans who is paying for your tax break and your child's education.
The commenter made the point that asking the government to forgive student loans was a form of a financial burden on his business via taxes. Furthermore, he made the argument that people interested in this kind of government bailout had a sense of entitlement and that these would simply be taxes passed on to his children and grandchildren for little more than what amounted to "4 or 5 years of self-exploration and overspending".
It was some interesting, compelling perspective and admittedly part of me shares some of the spirit of what I believe the writer meant. I have a very hard time thinking that the decisions I have made and ultimately the mistakes I have made should somehow become someone else's problems or that others should have to bail me out. After all, they were my choices and choices have consequences. Despite the deep financial hole I am in and as much as I feel I really need help and would appreciate that help I can't help but feel the responsibility for how I got here.BUT - this is where another part of my mind says, hold on - there are consequences to our choices right? Does this equally apply to everyone? Maybe I should look closer at this idea.
Let me start this new line of questioning by saying that the commenter apparently has made good decisions that have paid off for him. I am truly happy for him and his family. His dreams have been realized to some extent. That's wonderful! He isn't asking for a handout so why should he and his children have to help anyone else out? Right? That's a valid question.
While I agree with what this writer has to say I must take issue with the sentimentality and its shortsightedness. I have seen enough in my life to know that no one in life truly makes it anywhere or achieves anything without the assistance of others. At some point we all need some help. In fact, this simple understanding is so deep-seated in our society and we take it so serious that, as a country, we spend a large percentage of our current tax revenues in the United States on this ideal. So just what kind of help am I talking about and why would we do it? I will explain.
The kind of help I am referring to is the kind of help we lend to people blessed with children in our society. They are given elevated status above childless singles and couples. This status comes up every year they receive a tax break for each child that they have. And as a result, every person and couple without children pays a higher level of taxes to the IRS each and every year compared to their child-blessed counterparts. Why should this be so? Why is it fair to give preferential tax treatment to parents over childless singles and couples?
In addition, all homeowners must pay school taxes to their local school districts even if they don't have children, can't have children, or want to have children but can't have children because of other financial obligations (i.e., student loans).
So this begs the questions: why should childless singles and couples be asked to pay for the choices others have made to have children? Is this right? Is it fair to the childless?
My answer to all of this is that we all, at times must go beyond our present need and serve a larger, common good. Education serves that greater good in this example. Furthermore, perpetuation of our culture and our way of life through our children is also considered to be for the common good and is thus fundamentally important. But this commitment takes resources, significant time and money to achieve. We, all of us, support this commitment with tax incentives and spreading the burden around a larger tax base - to everyone, including those without children and those who own homes.
In short, most or all of us benefit from these share-the-burden type practices that have the greater good at heart. Sometimes we are the payers and sometimes we are the receivers. Sometimes we are both. But I hope I have shown, in an albeit crude and limited fashion, that it is longstanding practice to do what is right in this country and to help those in need, even when it may not sit right with some of us and it doesn't precisely meet our so called purist capitalistic ideals.
So to those who resist addressing the growing enslavement of some of America's good and decent minds through excessive student loan practices I say this: before you commit to doing everything in your power to oppose something that might ultimately benefit everyone - take a good look at your life and be thankful for what have you received because of the good graces of others. Maybe that tax break for your children or that public school education that you feel you are entitled too isn't such a sweet deal for someone else. And maybe that someone else, is someone struggling with $120,000 in student loans who is paying for your tax break and your child's education.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
How I Got Into This Mess Part 3
At 27 years old I made the hard decision to go back to school so that I could set my life right. I felt I had to make a change at that point in my life because I was struggling financially with jobs working in construction and in a retail establishment. Nothing about my life felt right - I was going nowhere and that didn't feel like me. I had a good mind that was going to waste and the degree I already had was not serving me.
At first I completed a second bachelors degree, this time in psychology. I did very well and finished in the spring of 1997.
It was at that time that I began acquiring the student loans that plague me today. As they started to grow I knew they were there but my mind was focused on my goal - to get my Ph.D. and to do something worthwhile with my life. I just had to stay focused I thought, and not let the worry about money get in the way. But it was always there - a nagging reminder.
So I stayed focused and marched on to graduate school. I was easily accepted into a graduate program at the University of Buffalo into one its psychology programs. All was well - or so I told myself.
In 2002 I was awarded my Master's Degree. It was a little late but that was because I was completing a lot of other coursework necessary for my Ph.D.
Soon after completing M.A. my financial situation started to hit critical however. Even though I had been working in various ways at this point - retail, teaching positions, graduate and teaching assistanships I still kept taking loans out - to pay for various expenses the jobs couldn't cover. It was at this point, about the time I turned 34 that I began to completely mismanage the loans and my financial future and things got crazy out of control.
Looking back I think I lost my focus for a number of reasons - none of which I offer as excuses. There was the pressure of finishing the degree, the knowledge that my loans were going to be coming due, the pending search for a job that was mostly likely going to be in academia which is highly competitve, and all the thoughts of how I was going to pay to do this job search. There was also a relationship with a woman I worked with that was starting, I lost a close friend in my graduate program over the aforementioned relationship, and then there was the subsequent breakup with the same girlfriend a while later. These weren't all my worries but some of the larger ones at the time.
All these pressures and worries put me to the test and all I can say was that when it came down to crunch time I folded and checked out for awhile. Don't get me wrong - I showed up for work and generally everything appeared fine from the outside but on the inside I was a wreck, very afraid and I wasn't sure what to do. I didn't feel I could ask for help or had anyone I could turn to. Because of the way my life had been up to that point I always felt like I should know and that if I didn't maybe I wasn't worthy.
It was when I got to the dissertation point in my program that I just stopped showing up altogether. I remember thinking that if I could just get through one more semester and I would be alright. All it really took was for my advising professor to tell me that he wasn't inclined to sign a document for my next semester of loans that I just couldn't deal with the mess that I made anymore. I couldn't afford it - I told myself - instead of seeking help - I pulled back in isolation with my shame. I walked away and was released from my program a year later by letter.
It sickens me to even think these words let alone write them but that is generally how it happened. That's how I ended up with $120, 000 in student loans without my Ph.D.
I offer this story not as an excuse but as an explanation for how I got into this mess.
At first I completed a second bachelors degree, this time in psychology. I did very well and finished in the spring of 1997.
It was at that time that I began acquiring the student loans that plague me today. As they started to grow I knew they were there but my mind was focused on my goal - to get my Ph.D. and to do something worthwhile with my life. I just had to stay focused I thought, and not let the worry about money get in the way. But it was always there - a nagging reminder.
So I stayed focused and marched on to graduate school. I was easily accepted into a graduate program at the University of Buffalo into one its psychology programs. All was well - or so I told myself.
In 2002 I was awarded my Master's Degree. It was a little late but that was because I was completing a lot of other coursework necessary for my Ph.D.
Soon after completing M.A. my financial situation started to hit critical however. Even though I had been working in various ways at this point - retail, teaching positions, graduate and teaching assistanships I still kept taking loans out - to pay for various expenses the jobs couldn't cover. It was at this point, about the time I turned 34 that I began to completely mismanage the loans and my financial future and things got crazy out of control.
Looking back I think I lost my focus for a number of reasons - none of which I offer as excuses. There was the pressure of finishing the degree, the knowledge that my loans were going to be coming due, the pending search for a job that was mostly likely going to be in academia which is highly competitve, and all the thoughts of how I was going to pay to do this job search. There was also a relationship with a woman I worked with that was starting, I lost a close friend in my graduate program over the aforementioned relationship, and then there was the subsequent breakup with the same girlfriend a while later. These weren't all my worries but some of the larger ones at the time.
All these pressures and worries put me to the test and all I can say was that when it came down to crunch time I folded and checked out for awhile. Don't get me wrong - I showed up for work and generally everything appeared fine from the outside but on the inside I was a wreck, very afraid and I wasn't sure what to do. I didn't feel I could ask for help or had anyone I could turn to. Because of the way my life had been up to that point I always felt like I should know and that if I didn't maybe I wasn't worthy.
It was when I got to the dissertation point in my program that I just stopped showing up altogether. I remember thinking that if I could just get through one more semester and I would be alright. All it really took was for my advising professor to tell me that he wasn't inclined to sign a document for my next semester of loans that I just couldn't deal with the mess that I made anymore. I couldn't afford it - I told myself - instead of seeking help - I pulled back in isolation with my shame. I walked away and was released from my program a year later by letter.
It sickens me to even think these words let alone write them but that is generally how it happened. That's how I ended up with $120, 000 in student loans without my Ph.D.
I offer this story not as an excuse but as an explanation for how I got into this mess.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Education: Utility or Futility?
Before I finish the miserable story of How I Got Into This Mess I thought it might be prudent to take a moment out to acknowledge that there yet may be some purpose for all my hardship and the mistakes I have made over the last 20 years or so.
Many years ago I came across an unattributed quote framed with an image of a shipwreck that read:
While I certainly didn't think that was meant for me at the time, that's a very powerful message I must share with you all. It is my hope that anyone planning some sizable financial move, whether it's going back to college or buying a house or any other significant monetary burden, thinks long and clear before making the leap.
You can't undo financial mistakes in any easy fashion anymore. So be wise - seek counsel and get some good advice before acting.
This is not to say that going to college is a bad choice or that seeking a higher level degree is a mistake. But in light of what I have shared thus far I can make the following recommendation with a clear conscience. Any education, whether a trade school, associates degree, bachelor degree or graduate degree should only be undertaken, in my humble opinion, with a specific job and target salary in mind, especially if the education requires some financial loan situation. In this way you can at least move forward into your future with a solid plan as your foundation. By using a plan you may then get the greatest utility out of your education rather than the futile existence that I feel am leading at the present time.
In sum, I can not recommend some one leverage their future with a wishy-washy idea of what they might do when their degree is completed. I have learned this lesson the hard way, so please, please, please I beg you - learn from my shipwreck.
Many years ago I came across an unattributed quote framed with an image of a shipwreck that read:
"It could be that the purpose of your life is only to serve as a warning to others."
While I certainly didn't think that was meant for me at the time, that's a very powerful message I must share with you all. It is my hope that anyone planning some sizable financial move, whether it's going back to college or buying a house or any other significant monetary burden, thinks long and clear before making the leap.
You can't undo financial mistakes in any easy fashion anymore. So be wise - seek counsel and get some good advice before acting.
This is not to say that going to college is a bad choice or that seeking a higher level degree is a mistake. But in light of what I have shared thus far I can make the following recommendation with a clear conscience. Any education, whether a trade school, associates degree, bachelor degree or graduate degree should only be undertaken, in my humble opinion, with a specific job and target salary in mind, especially if the education requires some financial loan situation. In this way you can at least move forward into your future with a solid plan as your foundation. By using a plan you may then get the greatest utility out of your education rather than the futile existence that I feel am leading at the present time.
In sum, I can not recommend some one leverage their future with a wishy-washy idea of what they might do when their degree is completed. I have learned this lesson the hard way, so please, please, please I beg you - learn from my shipwreck.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
How I Got Into This Mess Part 2
Ok, so last time I told you all about my pre-college woes. Yeah, I know. Some of you are thinking boohoo - poor little guy and you are right. Plenty of people in life have tough breaks, some much worse than what you just read. But that would be to miss my point that the mess I'm in has a situational context that partially explains how I got here. But I digress.
Anyway, after surviving a near miss, potentially fatal, car accident the first day I got the money pit on the road (true story) things went well the first year, sort of. I worked hard and made it to the deans list taking mostly pre-engineering courses. These included calculus, physics, chemistry etc. I lost 15lbs that first year while the average student gains 10lbs so I guess one could say I was a little stressed out. For money I worked when I could as a cashier at a local grocery chain. I had to temporarily give up my work with a construction company as it didn't jive with my classes.
Second year, I crashed. Family life at home was not so hot. Having to work and maintain class load was not so hot. A personal relationship that had recently ended was not so hot. My GPA crashed as course difficulty ramped up. I soon found myself mired in night after sleepless night in dreams about equations and geometric symbols. I was on academic probation by the end of the year - which was perfect timing you see because that was when the UB Engineering Department was officially accepting students for the Electrical Engineering program. Now that was timing.
It was then that it became clear that I would not be able to finish my degree in 4 years. I was told I would have to take additional courses to raise my GPA for consideration and that would likely take another year. Now at the time I wanted to get out of my parents house asap. So stretching this whole thing out seemed crazy and impossible - so once again I made a bad decision. To complete my degree as fast as I could I chose a major that I was able to complete in the targeted time frame - Economics. I chose it because I had already taken some courses and shown some propensity - it was that simple.
I completed the degree at night and on time while working construction during the day. So far so good. However, it was now the summer of 1991 and the economy was in a downturn thanks to George Bush Sr. and the late Ronald Reagan. People weren't exactly banging on my door to hire an economics major. I want on several interviews for jobs with sub par pay - but hey I needed a job so I just wanted to get my foot in the door and out my parents' door.
Interview after interview I was told I was actually overqualified.
Here I am thinking what kind of universe permits this kind of irony!? My response to them each time was that "if I was overqualified I wouldn't have applied". To that I heard the following phrase at least 4 times - "Well you know nothing is ever wasted."
Here I am at 40 and so far they were all WRONG! I have yet to get a job to this day because of that degree.
So now I'm 22, living at home with my swell family situation and working construction with a useless four year degree. I should have moved out of my parents house then - and let the chips fall as they may but I didn't. I didn't feel I could afford it, or was afraid of leaving or something - but I stayed and things didn't get any better. I wallowed in my mediocrity for quite some time.
I tried different jobs - none requiring a degree - until I got fed up and decided it was time to go back to school and try again. That's when I made my biggest mistake of all as I see it. And that is the stuff Part 3 of How I Got Into This Mess is all about.
Anyway, after surviving a near miss, potentially fatal, car accident the first day I got the money pit on the road (true story) things went well the first year, sort of. I worked hard and made it to the deans list taking mostly pre-engineering courses. These included calculus, physics, chemistry etc. I lost 15lbs that first year while the average student gains 10lbs so I guess one could say I was a little stressed out. For money I worked when I could as a cashier at a local grocery chain. I had to temporarily give up my work with a construction company as it didn't jive with my classes.
Second year, I crashed. Family life at home was not so hot. Having to work and maintain class load was not so hot. A personal relationship that had recently ended was not so hot. My GPA crashed as course difficulty ramped up. I soon found myself mired in night after sleepless night in dreams about equations and geometric symbols. I was on academic probation by the end of the year - which was perfect timing you see because that was when the UB Engineering Department was officially accepting students for the Electrical Engineering program. Now that was timing.
It was then that it became clear that I would not be able to finish my degree in 4 years. I was told I would have to take additional courses to raise my GPA for consideration and that would likely take another year. Now at the time I wanted to get out of my parents house asap. So stretching this whole thing out seemed crazy and impossible - so once again I made a bad decision. To complete my degree as fast as I could I chose a major that I was able to complete in the targeted time frame - Economics. I chose it because I had already taken some courses and shown some propensity - it was that simple.
I completed the degree at night and on time while working construction during the day. So far so good. However, it was now the summer of 1991 and the economy was in a downturn thanks to George Bush Sr. and the late Ronald Reagan. People weren't exactly banging on my door to hire an economics major. I want on several interviews for jobs with sub par pay - but hey I needed a job so I just wanted to get my foot in the door and out my parents' door.
Interview after interview I was told I was actually overqualified.
Here I am thinking what kind of universe permits this kind of irony!? My response to them each time was that "if I was overqualified I wouldn't have applied". To that I heard the following phrase at least 4 times - "Well you know nothing is ever wasted."
Here I am at 40 and so far they were all WRONG! I have yet to get a job to this day because of that degree.
So now I'm 22, living at home with my swell family situation and working construction with a useless four year degree. I should have moved out of my parents house then - and let the chips fall as they may but I didn't. I didn't feel I could afford it, or was afraid of leaving or something - but I stayed and things didn't get any better. I wallowed in my mediocrity for quite some time.
I tried different jobs - none requiring a degree - until I got fed up and decided it was time to go back to school and try again. That's when I made my biggest mistake of all as I see it. And that is the stuff Part 3 of How I Got Into This Mess is all about.
Friday, September 11, 2009
How I Got Into This Mess Part 1
My initial article explained the dire situation I am currently in but not how I got here. My readers deserve to know how all this came to be if there is some understanding to come out of all this.
I graduated high school in 1987 amidst a very difficult family situation. My parents were going through what seemed to be an impending divorce. At the time and in retrospect the divorce was the best thing for my family - my father didn't agree since he was the one at fault at every turn. He made it miserable for everyone, using every mental and emotional tactic he could to remain with little care for what was best for everyone. His tearful and at times suicidal pleas eventually won out, not because he was redeemable, but because he wore my brothers and my mother down. I wanted him gone for many reasons and eventually, a decade later, his unrelenting, abusive and childish behaviors would lead to a divorce and excommunication from the family, all of his own choice.
During the family drama of the summer of 1987, I was preparing for college. While other post high school teens were living it up with friends in social bliss I was suffering with immense anxiety of where I might end up living and how I was going to pay for college. I was certainly not in a good place to make such decisions and parental support was nonexistent. It was a terrible time to make such a big decision.
Now to understand everything that was going on in my head at 18yrs old you should know that my father had always promised to pay for college if I did well in school. With few exceptions, I earned straight As in high school so I had some expectation that this promise would be kept. However, my father was notorious over the years for speaking beyond his true word ending ultimately in statements that became lies. That's the nicest way I can put it but the name 'Liar' is what fills my mind. As the summer of 1987 came to an end it became clear there would be no money for college.
To make matters worse, as the fall of 1987 approached and the divorce issue between my parents was inconveniently shelved, I found myself needing transportation to school. The 'new' version of my father gallantly offered his vehicle as a means, because his work schedule would place him on the job at later hours in the day, leaving his vehicle free for daytime commuting to school. That offer lasted until just weeks before classes at the University of Buffalo were to due to commence. Just like he had done so many times to me before in my life my father not only let me down but lied and put me in a terrible situation. I now had to find a car in a hurry because his would only be available for a few weeks into the school year. Once again I was in a bad place to make another big decision. With little money and minimal knowledge of cars I sought out to find a vehicle with help from my older brother and an uncle.
The car I ultimately purchased became reminiscent of the 1986 film The Money Pit starring Tom Hanks and Shelley Long. Almost immediately after purchasing a 1983 Dodge Omni TC3 the transmission went and the exhaust system fell off the car. There is more to this car horror story but I think the effect is there - when it rains it pours! All the money I had at the time as well as some borrowed money from my father (more on that later) went into repairing the vehicle. I was going to college broke, in a car not quite road worthy, with a family support structure that was mostly non-existent, and not a clue as to how all this was getting paid for.
So that's the place I was in when I first became a student at the University of Buffalo in 1987. Though I hate to use puns, please tune in next time for Part 2 of How I Got Into This Mess.
I graduated high school in 1987 amidst a very difficult family situation. My parents were going through what seemed to be an impending divorce. At the time and in retrospect the divorce was the best thing for my family - my father didn't agree since he was the one at fault at every turn. He made it miserable for everyone, using every mental and emotional tactic he could to remain with little care for what was best for everyone. His tearful and at times suicidal pleas eventually won out, not because he was redeemable, but because he wore my brothers and my mother down. I wanted him gone for many reasons and eventually, a decade later, his unrelenting, abusive and childish behaviors would lead to a divorce and excommunication from the family, all of his own choice.
During the family drama of the summer of 1987, I was preparing for college. While other post high school teens were living it up with friends in social bliss I was suffering with immense anxiety of where I might end up living and how I was going to pay for college. I was certainly not in a good place to make such decisions and parental support was nonexistent. It was a terrible time to make such a big decision.
Now to understand everything that was going on in my head at 18yrs old you should know that my father had always promised to pay for college if I did well in school. With few exceptions, I earned straight As in high school so I had some expectation that this promise would be kept. However, my father was notorious over the years for speaking beyond his true word ending ultimately in statements that became lies. That's the nicest way I can put it but the name 'Liar' is what fills my mind. As the summer of 1987 came to an end it became clear there would be no money for college.
To make matters worse, as the fall of 1987 approached and the divorce issue between my parents was inconveniently shelved, I found myself needing transportation to school. The 'new' version of my father gallantly offered his vehicle as a means, because his work schedule would place him on the job at later hours in the day, leaving his vehicle free for daytime commuting to school. That offer lasted until just weeks before classes at the University of Buffalo were to due to commence. Just like he had done so many times to me before in my life my father not only let me down but lied and put me in a terrible situation. I now had to find a car in a hurry because his would only be available for a few weeks into the school year. Once again I was in a bad place to make another big decision. With little money and minimal knowledge of cars I sought out to find a vehicle with help from my older brother and an uncle.
The car I ultimately purchased became reminiscent of the 1986 film The Money Pit starring Tom Hanks and Shelley Long. Almost immediately after purchasing a 1983 Dodge Omni TC3 the transmission went and the exhaust system fell off the car. There is more to this car horror story but I think the effect is there - when it rains it pours! All the money I had at the time as well as some borrowed money from my father (more on that later) went into repairing the vehicle. I was going to college broke, in a car not quite road worthy, with a family support structure that was mostly non-existent, and not a clue as to how all this was getting paid for.
So that's the place I was in when I first became a student at the University of Buffalo in 1987. Though I hate to use puns, please tune in next time for Part 2 of How I Got Into This Mess.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
The Situation
Things happen along the way in life, especially things that you never planned or dreamed would happen. These undreamed things are not always good things either.
For instance, I fully expected to have a PhD. sitting on my wall by now for the nearly $120,000 in student loans that I now have. Instead, I am currently repaying my loans on a modest wage earned while learning a skilled trade as an apprentice. The wage is a far cry from being enough to pay the loan off in the short term. I figure it will take the rest of my life and then some at the current rate of repayment, even with foreseeable pay increases.
To make matters more agonizing, I was just notified by my student loan agency that my payments will nearly double from $274 to $491 for all future payments under an income contingent plan. That increase will take up almost 25% of my total monthly net income. I will not be able to get ahead or share a larger portion of the monthly bills with my new wife unless I get a new source of income or come into some type of windfall. I am not even sure I can afford the increase as is. I guess I have some math to work out.
Does anyone out there have any realistic ideas about other income sources? A way beyond all this debt? Relief of some kind? I am at a loss right now.
At this point, I really feel burned out and exhausted but also a need to keep plugging away to fix this, somehow. It's just that, at 40, my dream of having children of my own seems out of reach - having my own home too seems all but impossible unless something changes soon. I am frustrated because things feel hopeless to a certain degree. Mind you, I hope things aren't hopeless and that there is someway to fix all this.
The worst thing about all this is that I feel sad, alone and isolated with my student loans. The education that was supposed to free me has burdened me with the shame I feel for ever getting myself into this situation to begin with. Most isolating is that my family really has no knowledge as to the degree of my indebtedness and how it has paralyzed me. I can't bring myself to talk to them about it because of the great shame and embarrassment I feel. These loans, the large inescapable debt, have an additional burden not entirely summed up by the debt itself and it is soul sickening.
All these intertwined feelings lead me to wonder how many people like me there are out there. People feeling lost and helpless because they too got hoodwinked into thinking that spending lots of money on any kind of education was a surefire way to a good and prosperous future.
So this is where I am and what I am feeling as I start my blogging journey. I hope this helps someone as I explore this. I hope I find help as others have insight for me.
Welcome and good wishes to all who join me here.
For instance, I fully expected to have a PhD. sitting on my wall by now for the nearly $120,000 in student loans that I now have. Instead, I am currently repaying my loans on a modest wage earned while learning a skilled trade as an apprentice. The wage is a far cry from being enough to pay the loan off in the short term. I figure it will take the rest of my life and then some at the current rate of repayment, even with foreseeable pay increases.
To make matters more agonizing, I was just notified by my student loan agency that my payments will nearly double from $274 to $491 for all future payments under an income contingent plan. That increase will take up almost 25% of my total monthly net income. I will not be able to get ahead or share a larger portion of the monthly bills with my new wife unless I get a new source of income or come into some type of windfall. I am not even sure I can afford the increase as is. I guess I have some math to work out.
Does anyone out there have any realistic ideas about other income sources? A way beyond all this debt? Relief of some kind? I am at a loss right now.
At this point, I really feel burned out and exhausted but also a need to keep plugging away to fix this, somehow. It's just that, at 40, my dream of having children of my own seems out of reach - having my own home too seems all but impossible unless something changes soon. I am frustrated because things feel hopeless to a certain degree. Mind you, I hope things aren't hopeless and that there is someway to fix all this.
The worst thing about all this is that I feel sad, alone and isolated with my student loans. The education that was supposed to free me has burdened me with the shame I feel for ever getting myself into this situation to begin with. Most isolating is that my family really has no knowledge as to the degree of my indebtedness and how it has paralyzed me. I can't bring myself to talk to them about it because of the great shame and embarrassment I feel. These loans, the large inescapable debt, have an additional burden not entirely summed up by the debt itself and it is soul sickening.
All these intertwined feelings lead me to wonder how many people like me there are out there. People feeling lost and helpless because they too got hoodwinked into thinking that spending lots of money on any kind of education was a surefire way to a good and prosperous future.
So this is where I am and what I am feeling as I start my blogging journey. I hope this helps someone as I explore this. I hope I find help as others have insight for me.
Welcome and good wishes to all who join me here.
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